welcumm to sick person world! haaha slept today tll 10++ den went to see doctor; as usual have to drink more water. hahaha hmmms got 2 days mc but think i still hafta go school tmr lor, cant miss so many days. but being sick is good too lorr.. oops. hahaha.. cann get to stay at home. dunnid to go see those teachers ... hee3

btw i wanna clarify! i m straight! i m not les.. esp not with kailing, i wanna les oso find a better one right! hahah like.. shuai-er... nicer... hahah =pPp n i m straight de kays. i happen to have a HUGE MAJOR crush on ppl like zaizai, energy, n those cute looking footballers. so yar. basically i m so not les. hahha (:

heyys // heyys//

happy bdae joyce!

=X this girl think she v big lor, today come so late! we wait for her so longgg. aniway happy bdae! the monster thingy so cute right! kailing buy one!

oh yar. i m sick. croaking away in my super lowww and sexxxy voice. cant believe i actually RAN 2.4km today, hey cheer for me! haha. *croaks awayy* tmr dun think i can go school lor, kailing dearie ask me dun go. btw she did something so super SWEEEEET today, she gave me a v sweet card! it is in my wallet now. *grinns* so sweet of herr!

aiyohs, my whole blog entry got so many kailing *goosepimples*.

i think i m getting blurrer and blurrer. i actually FORGOT to bring my hw?!?! whats wrong with me man! oh gosh. this nv happened to me lorrs!! -confused confused-

stay the same

Chorus:
Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cause there's nothing 'bout you I would change

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

Chorus

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through

Chorus

Don't change...

chua yi you! haha if u r reading this. hahaa.. wells! haha.. today weeleng bdae how can u do tt to her =pPp it was so funnnyyy during math lecture todayy shiyan has some hearing prob i think, so she kept misinterpretating what yiyou n i were talking about! den she thought tt we two got ai mei guan xi! freaking out now. hahaha.. -innocent kk!

i was just thinking. reallie just thinking. sometimes maybe friendship lasts longer than everything else, cz u noe tt no matter wad, ur closest friends will alwayys be with u, but wells, maybe the person u love will just leave you when the love is no longer there? yepps. I know tt maybe it is a very pessimistic view, but must consider both sides of the argument right! One reason I am stil surviving in school is coz of my friends, coz they will be in school laming together with me! so yarr, i still think that friendship will last longer than everything else.

if loving some1 is so hard, why do u still continue?

listening to jiang mei qi's ni hui bu hui bian now. will u change? change is a constant in the world iznt it? u just so cant change tt fact. people change, surroundings change. so what if u go back one day? everything may be different already won't it. so why must u go back to the past? you may not fit in, coz feelings change. really.

yar well. i have tests to study for. cya. [haha n veggies to cook!]

arghhhhs something happened yesterday n damnit larr i m feeling super bad now. okays. i cannot feel inferior [quote from kailing!] i m as good as any1 else on this earth! right? hahaha self confidence is the key!

i realised it is nice to make people feel happy for the entire day, u nver know, maybe something u unconsciously do helps to brighten up some people's day..

*angelic look* thank you thank you!

take me to ur heart

take me to your heart
take to your soul
give me your hand before i'm old
show me what love is
havent got a clue
show me that wonders can be true
they say nothing last forever
we're only here today
love is now or never
bring me faraway

this is the english versh of wen bie [the jacky cheung song] yarr.. by mltr. it is nice and sweet hahah.. i like it larr

hmmms i m officially in the spread the friendshippy love campaign! ahaha tell ur friends that u love them to your appreciation for them being there for u. hmmmms, i gt so many people to name kayys? cz somehow u ppl were there for me in the past... present and hopefully future! i think sometimes friendship lasts longer than many other things, if we work hard to like.. *cultivate* it. Friendship is a two way road, we have to walk down it together hand in hand kays.

wo men hai you hen duo meng yao zuo
hai you hen duo ming tian yao zou
bu guan shi jie jin tou duo ji mo
ni de shen pang yi ding you wo

no matter how lonely the corners of the world are.. i hope that we really can be there for each other. i know it is difficult to keep up a friendship for a long period of time, but lets try kaes?
thanks people!

The love we had together
just fades away in time
And now you've got your own world
and I guess I've got mine
But the passion that you planted
in the middle of my heart
is a passion that will never stop

waiyee: thanks dearie! hahha coz i was superrr sad n worried that day larr, but i guess i am okay now (:

okays people. stress weeek. stressed

wells, i must celebrate a victory. cz i finally forgot you i mean it! hahaha i can finally think of XX without feeling anything. like NOTHING. BLANK, no matter what XX said. whoa, i mean after such a long time, this is a greeeeaaaat feeling! oh gosh shermeen darrrlinngg i love u! hahahah okayyys . *wooohoooo

so late alreadie lorrs, my brother still piaing his homework i m at his com now =X hahhaha, oops. hee3 kk gotta go sleeeeeeep.

heys buddies, i love u!! ahhh
kailing came my house todayy! den she stared at my com till she went cock eyeed! hahah my ma thinks she is pretty! i think so too... so tall lorr! hahaha, my ma was like " hao gao o!" hhahahah... u tall girl! hee3,

hahha btw today was a freaaakkky dayy too. *freaked by somethings tt happened*

i am a michael learns to rock fan!

oy my gosh! hahha! wanna go visit my couz house to get their cd
so many many nice songs
ahh! okay shall go buy a cd! hmmms. -broke lehh-
haha
today in school. wellls. some people used the model class thing to like threaten us larr. hmmms. maybe they have their point to, but like this kinda thing? sorrie i cant agree. we are people too, not models. we are human beings. right? hmmms maybe I shal go school tmr and kinda try to like listen and keep an open mind.

eleveners! cheer up! we rock!

happy bdae kailing!

not exactly Happy Birthday then, but.. hmmms belated birthday kaes! touched right? We give you such nice present.. haha then today recess time joyce waiyee n sunni were decorating kailing's prezzie and we had to draggg her off to the toilet! *grins* haha [not a very nice place u know!]

I am just so dreading tomorrow because some stuff someone did (or didn't do) but escapism isn't the right way out right? I should face it.. (music or fire?) haiz. Please. Someone get me out of this. I still don't think I did anything wrong, but the responsibility is on me. I feel so scuky and now I can't really like tell any1 cz it will be like repeating myself. I hate it. hate it. hate it. Have you ever asked why would it happen to you? I tried you know. But i cant find an answer to this. Fate? Destiny? I used to like these two words a lot, till I realise that I may not be able to control it. Everything is just slipping out of my hands.. literally. I cannot find the link to my life and me. There are some things I hate to do, but I must do it.

[Yes, I feel this way too. I am not perfect]

I'm sorry I'm not perfect

I really am. But can you just try to accept me the way I am? I get whims sometimes. I throw my temper. I want to lock my door up and cry. just cry and continue to cry. non-stop.
But once again, I can't right? Coz it is not right. I must face my life. My Destiny. And try to regain control of my life.

The world seems to be spinning without me
I am like stuck in my own times, living in my own world. But I have to break out of this bubble don't I? I won't have my fairytale around me forever. A fairytale is like a dream .. u wake up from it. Maybe now the alarm clocks are ringing and everyone is shouting for me to wake up. I can't hear them. Or.. maybe.. I chose not to.

What if I just go on sleeping? Hmms.. and dreaming my own dreams.
Does anyone understand how I feel?
I know I probably sound very different now
But what you see on the surface may not be true

I've been wondering. What is optimism. I thought I was rather optimistic. Till I realised I have been living in this shell.. this coccoon that I have built around myself, where I am happy, where everyone is happy. Till one day some1 broke it, and I am still trying to keep it together. I want to. But everything else seems to be pulling it apart. Why. Why did you have to break it?!?!?!

Let me be what I want to be.

Sometimes I wise you will just listen to me.

Oh btw, there is one song that fits my mood now.. or more than one?

one day by simple plan
runaway by david tao

escapism

piano. DH Lawrence


Softly, in the dusk, a woman is singing to me;
Taking me back down the vista of years, till I see
A child sitting under the piano, in the boom of the tingling strings
And pressing the small, poised feet of a mother who smiles as she sings.

In spite of myself, the insidious mastry of song
Betrays me back, till the heart of me weeps to belong
To the old Sunday evenings at home, with winter outside
And hymns in the cozy parlor, the tinkling piano our guide.

So now it is vain for the singer to burst into clamor
With the great black piano apassionato. The glamor
Of childhood days is upon me, my manhood is cast
Down in the flood of remembrance, I weep like a child for the past.


___________________________________________________________


One Flesh. Elizabeth Jennings

Lying apart now, each in a separate bed,
He with a book, keeping the light on late,
She like a girl dreaming of childhood,
All men elsewhere - it is as if they wait
Some new event: the book he holds unread,
Her eyes fixed on the shadows overhead.

Tossed up like flotsam from a former passion,
How cool they lie. They hardly ever touch,
Or if they do, it is like a confession
Of having little feeling - or too much.
Chastity faces them, a destination
For which their whole lives were a preparation.

Strangely apart, yet strangely close together,
Silence between them like a thread to hold
And not wind in. And time itself's a feather
Touching them gently. Do they know they're old,
These two who are my father and my mother
Whose fire from which I came, has now grown cold?

changed my template! hahahha
hmms... was just bored larrs..
i know this song kinda old but i loveee it..!!
if you're not the one
some songs are classic love songsfor a reason
and i think this song is the best!

made chocs today
not that bad for a first effort
shall make more tmr... hopefully its gonna be yummier
not as buttery ehhh hahahah

happy april fool's dayy people todayy was okay
hahha we played tricks on teachers
i gonna miss four-eleven

hee3... okayy thats all

love ya ppl!