okayys. i cleared up whatever thing that was bugging me already. feel so much better now!!! *grinns*

england lost to portugal. but. sigh. they didnt really play very well? seriously. i watched!! i stayed up and watched the match and ended up sleeping on the sofa. wells. don't know lars, quite disappointed i guess.

go buy lin jun jie's cd! its nice!

As I close my eyes
Sit back while reminiscing
Of when we used to fuss and fight but end up kissing
There may be sad and painful times along the way
But in my heart you'll always be everything and more to me
For I know this love between us is growing stronger

i guess i am supposed to be real happy and over the moon now. but i am not, there is something bugging me at the back of my mind that i am doing the wrong thing and hurting a lot of people in the process. is this something that happens to everyone? i thought people in the same situation as me are supposed to be happy.

am i considering too much? thinking too much of myself? or other people? am i being too cautious of everything? i seriously don't know. or do i really really live in the past and cant bring myself to face the present?

do i really know you or do i know who i think you are

i am at crossroads now. i don't want to go on hurting anyone, but in the process i will inevitably hurt someone. i really really dont want to, cz u matter to me in spite of what i am feeling now.

lets talk about more happening things i guess, *get out of the weird mood* .. haha my new craze is euro 2004 (= .. quite exciting you know! haha, i have dark eyerings from all the nights already. cheers!

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

i am sorry. i am sorry. i am sorry. why do i always feel @#&*($^&^#$ when i write my blog. haha its been a long time since i wrote a happy blog entry i guess.

sometimes, u just feel that u are alone in the world. I don't know how i feel that, but the feeling just overwhelms me and takes over my thoughts. I try to convince myself otherwise. but well, i just feel all left alone.

i want to scream out loud. will you be my friend?? please.

but. well. somethings u just cant change.

and. france. won.

go england!

chicken here! (=

wells. heys go listen to lin jun jie's new cd! not that i bought it yet, waiting for my daddy to get one for me in china (: but i listened to the songs online, very nice!!

i like jiang nan.. haha, same name as his cd, its v sad and the lyrics v nice i strongly recommend (: guess i will go down to hmv and listen to the entire cd again! so nice!

yepps, happy bdae to some1 *grin*

i am pissed, what can i say? i am so pissed

so please nxt time, please think of others before u say anything

and please think of what others will feel

don't use any excuse that u are busy

when i am busy i also spend some time with u right.

don't make promises u cant keep

my heart cant take it anymore.

just get out of my heart. my life.

[this is directed at more than one person]