1:35 AM
Sunday, December 26, 2004
songs!*
Would he walk on water// Would he run through fire// Would he stand before you// Will he be your anchor when a dark unfolds// Will he always love you the best that he knows// Would he give his life up// To be all he can// Is that, is that, is that// How you measure a man
-measure of a man, clay aiken
I swear
By the moon and stars in the sky
I'll be there
I swear
Like the shadow that's by your side
I'll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my heart
I swearI'll give you everything I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang some memories on the wall
And when there's silver in your hair
You won't have to ask if I still care
'Cause as time turns the page
My love won't age at all - i swear
9:37 PM
Saturday, December 18, 2004
im back!
anyway i got into hwa chong. haha, okay its expected even my mum went "oh hc ah? good". my dad? "huh u got put other schools meh?" haha ive got weird parents. it has been such a long time since i've blogged. my holidays have been quite normal, rather quiet and well ups and downs.
melbourne was so fun, when i find my cam i will upload the pics (if i can figure out how to) =D. hunks, sea, city, melbourne! i think its an ideal retirement city, can imagine me as an old aunty with my grandchildren at St Kilda beach eating choc cheesecake and soaking up the sun. Or bringing them on a walk at the Fitzroy Gardens, sitting down on the beauutiful grass and looking at the clear blue sky. Told this to kailing and waiyee, then kailing asked if i would immigrate. To think of it, i think no matter what, i will stay in Singapore i guess. Unless i marry this rich hunky CEO who can give me a private jet to fly around the world to go to my favourite cities, i guess i am stuck in Singapore. i got a tan in melbourne too, their summer sun is so strong, and at the beach u see guys surfing and whatever. =) and i still like the waiter. his picture is my wallpaper, dont think he will remember me though i m so small. but i still like him. think he is a uni student working his summer job, wonder what is he studying... hahha, i m infatuated with a guy i dont even know. anw i was so shy i didnt even dare to raise my head everytime he served us, only on the 2nd last day I got enough courage to say "hey. can i take a photo with u", which made him er, shocked i guess but he didnt show it. I wish i am taller. I wish i am prettier, then maybe he will notice me and we can exchange, erm, email addresses. hhahaha =) just joking but daydreams are nice.
i like mayday's new album which is so ROCK is nice, all those fast fast songs make me feel not-so-lazy. ahhaa and stef's album is nice. but i still like mayday. =D feel like buying a lot of things, i need a new shirt sleeveless i like the nike one but i think its too big for me. why cant i be taller. but hey. u cant help this kind of things right, its genes. and my daddy told me ystrdy to find a tall hunk if i ever get married so my kids can be tall. arghs. hahha. anw baked cookies and brownies this holiday too. i like the choc fudge! its made by melting hersheys choc chips and condensed milk. i think the brownies taste nice but the cookies... i like the soft ones better as compared to the ones me wai n dor baked prior to our visit to ms chen's house. and ive got a christmas log cake at home, 90% of it is PURE choc, its so sinful i love it. anw i think i am the only one in the family who likes it, the rest think that it has too much choc. when can choc be too much?! i love choc!!
anyway sly power. was in melbourne when it was the finals, guess i missed it but i still like sly. sly. =D
christmas wishlits*
-ipod mini
-jay chou concert (i missed it)
-learn how to style my hair (employ wai as my personal stylist)
-nike shirt
-grow taller. (ah well)
-have a nice time in jc.
anyway i am getting jitters about being in jc. i dont know why, didn't feel so scared and nervous when i changed school or classes before. ah. but ive got phey wa in the same subj combi as me. but i am still scared. what if i say something stupid or i cant fit in or. or. ah. get it? i m nervouse and i cant believe it. help me. someone. what if i faint on the first day of school?!?!
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt To feel lost
To be left out in the dark To be kicked
When you're down To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
